I'm fed up of being good. Of being understanding. I'm fed up of things never working right when I need them to.
I'm disappointed. But now disappointment leads to anger. That kind of anger built up of too much sadness. Of anguish. Of realising you have been stupid too many times. Realising it's too late to be furious but you are furious just the same. Realising what was your life has gone.
I've made mistakes, but I can't remember anything I'd have to regret. But that doesn't make me feel better. And now, again, I look at the moon and try to cry but I can't. And I need to, I swear I need to.
I'm disappointed. But now disappointment leads to anger. That kind of anger built up of too much sadness. Of anguish. Of realising you have been stupid too many times. Realising it's too late to be furious but you are furious just the same. Realising what was your life has gone.
I've made mistakes, but I can't remember anything I'd have to regret. But that doesn't make me feel better. And now, again, I look at the moon and try to cry but I can't. And I need to, I swear I need to.
posted by svye at 7/31/2006 09:04:00 am
6 Comments:
I think you're just taking the dark side of the history. You say you made some mistakes, but also you feel not mistaken as you don't regret anything.
What was wrong with what you did? Are you really convinced of your errors? Seems to me that you should be even proud of what you did.
You did what you felt to be right. You reacted instead of being passive about your life. You miss what your life used to be, right, but who doesn't miss that?
Life's always changing, and as a changing creature, it is never the same as it was. You must live with that, since life's life.
I'm afraid I'm yelling non-senses, but I do know you'll get me and draw a little smile on your pretty face, just because you worth it.
SMILE! NOW! Or you'll owe me an ice-cream. :)
I did not say that I have made mistakes, I said I have been stupid.
And anyway one thing is that life changes, and another thing is that it changes in a way you don't like it to change.
I do get you. And I do owe you an ice-cream.
Quote: "I've made mistakes"
Well, it actually seems like you SAID you made mistakes...
Life changes in its own way, whether we like it or not. The only thing we can do is to accept that way, or to do our best to adapt it to our expectations.
Don't give up. I won't let you to feed me uo with icecreams...
Well, it seems as though you are going to get as fat as lagos.
And ok, I said I have made mistakes you stupid little bastard. And I am actually trying to adapt to my life, but I am not quite sure how to.
I think you started to do in the right way. But don't ever forget you have to find your own.
And please, DO NOT get me as Lagos, or I'll have to kill you in a dreadful pain... :)
Please do not kill me in a dreadful way... I promise I'll try to smile a bit more :-)
And of course I have to do it my way. That is what I am trying to do, find my own way. I hope this is the right thing to do.
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